Changing my focus

Ok, so today I was going to blog about the fact that my day at home a week doesn't seem to be making much of a difference to my workload during the rest of the week apart from the fact that, from my perspective, Hubby seems to have stopped doing anything around the house unless I ask him to (this is from my perspective, so probably very skewed!). So there I was feeling all hard done by and 'why should I have to do everything round here, I still work pretty much full time' and was writing this in my prayer/biblestudy/God journal.

But during my writing, God began to speak to me in a soft, gentle loving way. He showed me that as long as I have serving Hubby and my house as being my main motivation then I will always be frustrated at the results and lack of help etc etc. But if I do it as an act of worship, to serve God by being the woman and wife he made me to be, then it doesn't feel so hard anymore and I found myself asking for more opportunities to have the privilidge of serving God. A huge weight lifted from my chest, I felt my eyebrows (weird I know!) feel lighter and I felt warm and positive. Of course I am to serve my husband as he is to serve me in the Godly sense of the word, but if I put God at the centre of what I do and where He's asked me to be, then life will seem brighter.

I realised that recently I have been doing things in my own strength, which as we all know is a recipe for disaster! But when I sought God this morning, He was there in a wonderful way. Makes me wonder why its been so long since I last did it!

And on another note, I read Matt 5 this morning and pondered on it. Jesus's teaching there was totally and utterly radical. He was taking the existing laws, turning some upside down, and taking others a few hundred steps further. What must it have been like for the disciples as they sat with Jesus and heard him say all this stuff????